Mommy meltdown
A few days ago, I got an attitude with my husband because after he made breakfast for Noah, he went and got ready for church. I normally get Noah and myself ready for church because my husband is preparing to minister, but on this day I felt overwhelmed doing so. I had to take a quick shower, and do a quick makeup routine, so I kept the door open to keep an eye on my sweet girl while she watched Peppa Pig.
I started to reflect where my thoughts and feeling were coming from because my husband is all in and is very hands on with Noah. He cooks for her, does her hair, gives her bath, takes her out to play, etc. We tag team and most of the time it is 50/50 shared responsibility. On some days he is the lead parent ( because I disappear and take a nap) and some days I am ( mainly when he has meetings at church) So, I could not understand why I was feeling this way.
After church my husband asked me what was going on because I seemed out of it this morning, and I broke out in an ugly cry. I said, “ You get to get dressed in peace!” I have to get Noah and myself ready… ( more ugly crying) all I want to do is take a shower and not feel “ on all the time”. My husband was looking at me like ooooo okkk, and from that point on I’ve been having my time in the shower and smelling my invigorating shower gel. My learned lesson from this was instead of getting an attitude, “ use my words” like we tell our daughter because my husband will wholeheartedly make the necessary adjustments so that I can get what I need. For this I am grateful.